I wrote the song "Mother" and a few others during my mom's time before her death after getting cancer. It was the second hardest death I have gone through but I was lucky enough to be there when it happened as she took her last breath. She is no longer in pain and she wanted to not fight her cancer being at stage 4 which I would have felt the exact same way as we respected her wishes. She was one of the closest people I had in my life and even though we had our very different lifestyles and we could never understand each other on many levels we respected each other unlike my father who left me several decades ago. My mother was one of the strongest woman I knew and to see her so weak and gone those last few days broke my heart but again I believe she is where she wants to be. I am glad for her as I struggle with my thoughts on that I made it my goal to be a more giving person, not be so selfish, and although I have always loved Jesus I never liked his father but for her I have decided that maybe he got me there on time to see her pass on that maybe he I am wrong about him? I am not sure what I consider myself or why she of all people had to suffer I know that for her I will open up more to him...
JP Vanir of Vampyrian616
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